我从未犹豫过，直到那一天。我以为我们一直都在友情的海洋中航行，爱情的波涛还未能冲刷我们的边界。八年的岁月，我始终没有踏出这条线，而是紧跟着你的脚步，一起经历了风雨。

2016年9月20日，那个晚上，你的笑容变得陌生和忧郁。也许那个三亚之旅会让一切冷静下来，但我仍然迷失于回忆、梦境与现实之间。我开始小心翼翼地回复消息，电话变得稀少。但每天的关心让我无法放手，即便你离开了，也要知道你是我最珍贵的人。

我害怕伤害你，更怕失去你，所以我总是犹豫不决，不敢跨过那道分水岭。我想要的是一个朋友的安稳，但我的内心充满了罪恶感。你说你愿意等待，我却无法接受，因为我的心里已经有了一种爱情。

当你送给我玫瑰时，我不知道如何应对，因为那些云朵上的飞机更让我心动。那份承诺太美，让我只能把你当作是我最亲近的朋友。你给予我的理解，我一直都懂，可是我自己的用心，你是否真的知道？

如果我的懦弱 hadn't stopped me from staying just as friends, perhaps we wouldn't have gone through these years of heartache. You wouldn't have lost sleep over my disappearance, and I wouldn't have worried about your well-being.

Our relationship is a mix of what others don't understand - a silent understanding that's perfect for friends. Eight years, nearly 3,000 days. I've never regretted knowing you or loving you. I remember your words: if one day you remain unmarried and I'm still single, you'll wait for me and marry me.

That promise was too heavy for me to bear back then, but it became your steadfast loyalty in the past eight years. And yet, I feel like I owe you an apology.

Perhaps our relationship should end here, at this perfect distance. If one day my journey takes me far away to any corner of the world or sea, I'll always remember your face and cherish those memories... that would be enough.

Let this dust-covered emotion blow away with the wind; such memories are sufficient for me to hold onto forever.I won't linger by your side anymore out of reluctance to let go of our friendship.Just wish for your happiness in the future - no matter where life takes us next.Wish you well.My friend --- Junsen